Saturday, March 21, 2009

Thoughts on Spring

I have finally realized what all the fuss is about Spring. After months of overcast, grey skies, barren and bald trees and, in some places, inches and inches of snow, the coming of Spring seems to bring with it the very essence of life. The greys of Winter are chased away by the greens and reds and yellows of Spring. The air is crisp and while it is not as freezing as Winter, there still is a bite of cold, which I love.

Today is my last full day in Washington, DC. I spent the morning walking around the Tidal Basin, near the Jefferson Memorial and Washington Monument. I was told the Cherry blossoms have started blooming. There weren’t any full-bloomed cherry blossoms yet but the buds have begun to sprout from the tree branches. In the afternoon, I visited the Arlington National Cemetery. Near the Kennedy Grave Site, the cherry blossoms there are already in full bloom and it was a sight to behold.

There is something romantic about the recent turn of events, now that I think about it. I found out on Monday that I did not Match to any hospital, i.e. I didn’t get a job. The next several days found me calling up programs, sending out emails, and obsessively checking the NRMP website for developments. Through the entire exercise, I have been praying and seeking God’s heart and mind on what He intends for me to do in the coming few months. I have cried my heart out to Him and have pleaded with Him about this. In the end, I will come home jobless but I got something infinitely more precious. I received His peace and this Word:

“For I know the plans I have for you ... plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

In less than a week upon my arrival in San Francisco, I’ll be flying back home. I realized that, in a way, I’m coming home to a clean slate. I have my plans in mind but I have made a conscious decision to completely trust in God’s leading this time around. I have chosen to stop worrying about my career goals and where I’ll find myself in the next few years. Instead, I have decided to allow God to bring in Spring -- new life, new meaning, and a renewed purpose.

As I was gazing out towards Washington, DC from the Kennedy Grave Site, a thought crystallized in my mind and this has been something that I’ve known for some time. My six-month journey to the United States was never a waste even though I didn’t receive what I came here for. The past six months allowed me to experience new things, meet new people, and nourish old friendships. What a way to end my trip to DC and wind down 6 months of traveling in the US! I’ll be coming home with hundreds of pictures from my trip. But there’s one photo, which I took at the Kennedy Grave Site, that seems to represent the coming of Spring, and I shall close this entry with it.

1 comment:

The Fish said...

My sister and my bestfriend chose the same path as you did -- they tried and failed and then tried again. Not sure what your plan is but i think 6 months is too short a time to make conclusions.
For what it's worth, maybe you should talk to my sister too before you come home to Manila. Will tell her on facebook and you can add her as friend there.
:) Goodluck!
nakakaiyak naman ang post mo.